Foolish
You made me out to be a fool
A fool i am not
Your greatest mistake
Was creating a monster so beautiful
A beautiful monster
The pain and suffering handed out by you
Enough to last an eternity
But provided an entity
Allowed for my soul to flourish
Under the harshest light
To overcome the worst
In a battle hard fought
Under flinching shadows
It was comfort that i sought
Reaching through the darkness
Hoping to find the right path
Only to led astray by a monster
Who made me want to stay
Drowning in her sorrows
A long time in the dark
She finally found her path in life
Putting an end to her strife
The end was reached
A harrowing defeat
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Look out across the void
The empty space
Full of sin
A lone sailor rides the wave of euphoria
Thinking it will last forever
He rushes slowly into the depths of despair
Never looking back on life
Because a life with them is a life of lies
This twisted fate
Look what it creates
Seeping out into the void
White noise looks to conceal the broken lines
Of a life filled with broken mirrors
Reflected back is only a shell
As empty as the world it occupies
As empty as the space full of sin
Alone
They sit alone at kitchen tables
Once filled with tea and talk and love
Love, what’s that again?
It’s been so long since they have felt embrace
Talking through a piece of cloth on your face
It can’t be normal, just can’t be real
Have people forgotten how to feel?
Are we numb as a human race, feelings and real pain we just replace
Put up a steel wall
Wont return your calls
Where is the art of conversation?
Have we forgotten communication?
We may have, but they haven’t
Those folks sitting confined to their nursing home bed
Who once spoke out and now are silenced instead
Only socialisation is through a window
Left there wondering where did their lives go.
History will Repeat
History will repeat
An idea ever shared
Yet we sit in our seat
Because none of us cared
An idea said to be wrong
Won’t disappear
With its first song
It will only make us fear
Time ticks by
And like a broken clock
A repeat comes nigh
On life’s door it will knock
We will only move on
And live better lives
If this repetition is gone
Flown high in the skies
Yet it never will leave
Never vacant, always waiting
Not unless we believe
In a world free from draining
The joy of our lives.
And with that, I depart
From time’s prying eyes
To stay young at heart
Love
Love is heartbreak
That can tear you apart
Love is hammer
That breaks your heart
Love is the start
Of something new
Love is what makes
The sky stay blue
Love is a chapter
Ready to explore
Love is a book
Or an unlocked door
Love is life
But we have to wait
Love if the start
Of something great
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I was the skinny girl growing up. From ages 5-13 I was asked if I was “anorexic” or sick.
I never thought about my body. Then I hit 14 and from then I grew.
I grew outwards and upwards. I’m skinny.
If you didn’t know, if you’re skinny you can’t be insecure.
Society says this. People compliment my body now.
“You’re so skinny” they say. “You’re so lucky” they finish.
But they don’t see the empty dinner plates.
They don’t see the days I’ve missed breakfast.
They don’t see the hours I spend running on a treadmill.
They don’t hear the times I’ve told my parents “I’m not hungry” or “I already ate”.
They don’t see the standing in the scale and the wrapping my fingers around my wrist.
But I can’t say anything. Because skinny girls can’t be insecure.
Teenage Jungle
Welcome to the jungle we’ve got dirty teens
Trees of attitude and acne
Leaves of trouble and grief
The life we live was macheted before us
From previous teenagers travelling to an uncharted land
Of growing up and telling you what you have to be
Kings of the jungle rule the school
Runts of the pack aren’t the people who you tend
What the kings don’t realise is
There time as kings is coming to an end
And so those who think their kings fall back and let the former runts run the pack
Strong
I know right now is really hard,
It hit us hard and left us scarred,
But we gotta keep moving on,
Proving wrong,
Staying strong and pushing on,
We sit at a field till the break of dawn,
Your loved one sitting across from you,
And you knew
That your love was a breakthrough,
You two beat covid together,
And you knew that you two were bound to stay together…forever.
This Year
This year has been like living alone
Boredom, emptiness life on my phone
Looking around the world stood still
Hoping things change hoping they will
The silence is loud makes you feel small
I feel now everyone’s waiting
To return to a life that makes us feel alive
Wishing to live to the full
Judgement
I’m so sick of people judging me,
If them wanting me to be something I can’t be
Of having to hide my thoughts,
Cause what I think matters not
To them, the people who think
That they control everyone like how they blink,
They get to speak and yell out their minds,
I have hide mine behind curtains and blinds,
Because I mightn’t agree exactly,
And that just means it’s wrong actually,
Because that how it works right,
Why else would they be uptight,
I love everything and everyone,
But those who love me are only one.
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Standing solo over a sea of sin,
Feeling weak, temptation to jump in is closing in,
Feeling trapped and worthless
But on the outside perfect
Happy, content with my mind at ease,
This is not my reality someone help me please.
I Wanted
I am too bothered when I think
My tears could fill the sink
You wanted a chance but our love could not be
For you were just not right for me
I wanted to be his other
But his heart was for another
I’ve nothing left to loose
You left me with sadness and blues
All the notes you left I’ve read
And all the thoughts of you in my head
It was too good to be true
I wanted you to love me and sadly, I still do
You do not want me
You are not mine
You are You
I tried to fit the standards
That we have set
Only to realise
It’s all in our head.
Photoshop, airbrush, nothing is real,
Stop and think, “how do i feel?”
You are worth more than a like on a post,
How you are feeling is worth the most.
I know that it’s tough
But please don’t forget
You are you and you are enough.
In an Age
We live in an age where we are told to be happy,
Yet people are always complaining about others.
Wether they think that their sexuality doesn’t exist,
Or will send them to hell.
That people don’t know what their own gender is,
As if, their happiness is on the line.
As if it was their lives being lost and their rights being compromised.
Enough
I only ever wanted to be enough
But I have to be strong and I have to be tough
It feels goddamn impossible to satisfy you
I want to love you so much why the hell don’t you love me too?
I just want to prove to myself that I have something here to do
Gritting my teeth, training hard in the shed
Just trying to be happy and to get out of my head
We Survived
We’ve survived this life so far but how far have we really come
What stops us from finally feeling complete?
The time I’ve taken to myself has left me with the feeling I’m fine alone
A Light
Out in the distance a light.
In the dark its so bright.
It holds back the cold.
An invention oh so old.
It fights it destroys it burns.
It kills the trees the hedges the ferns
But it finally stands alone
It dies
Taking and Taking
Everyone’s taking and taking
I’m breaking and breaking
Voices keep screaming
Arms keep bleeding
No one seeing
These are fragments of my very being
Stuck
I’m stuck in a shell
It feels like I’m really in a monsters hell
I can’t express who I really want to be
For my insecurities always get the best of me but
I say that I’m fine
So nobody will ever see past my invisible line
Screaming
The world is screaming
Information beaming into my brain
I’m supposed to care about everything
That’s insane
It’s overwhelming I need to stop caring
Stop staring
At my screen all night
Watching the world fight
Nothing will be alright
A Small Village
I come from a small village with not a lot of people,
From a young age, I was never idle
Working and helping out my family,
I played football but was never very good
And the same with hurling,
I found who I was when I first sat into a tractor
And that’s where I am most happy
And any spare moment I have
It is on a farm or in a tractor.
Every Day
Its the same thing every day
The sun comes up and then the kids play.
They have thoughts of school that they keep at bay
By training and grinding and taking scoops of whey.
The grind is tough but it’s worth all the while,
You look around and all you see is smiles.
They work harder than anyone and run for miles
Just to stay busy and live for this lifestyle.
The World
The world is crumbling
Buildings are tumbling
People crying in pain
Everyday is the same
Countries gone corrupt
The world stop abrupt.
The world full of despair
Torture and begging everywhere
Love
Love will move on,
Get over it and continue to succeed.
Never give someone the satisfaction of watching you suffer.
Square
Trapped in the same 5 kilometre square,
That for everyone seems so unfair,
Heaven for some and for others despair,
Eventually peoples brains start to tear,
The walls they start to stare,
All in that same 5 kilometre square.
Football
Football makes people go mad
If your team loses you might be sad
But when your your team is on good form
Your day to day life will be a storm
Football is like my religion
School
I hate school,
I love it though
I like the way my friends and I grow
We have been through a lot
But TY has been a though shot
We are trying to make the best of what we have got
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WAGWAN G,(YUH)
IM 16,(WHAT)
LIVIN THE DREAM,(BLUKU)
ROLLIN WITH MY TEAM,(SERIOUS)
I FEEL LIKE AN ASTRANOUT IN THE OCEAN(WOAT)
LOVE IS A POTION(SIP)
HOP IN THE BENZ
PUT THE WHEELZ IN MOTION(SLICK