I live in a world of standards and judgement
Toxicity and misery run abundant.
The grey sky blankets the world in despair,
Cries for help are seemingly left hanging in the air
This world is a battlefield of words and expectations
Disease and corruption divide unlucky nations.
I keep my head high looking for hope.
While fighting a cold war on an endless slope.
I Lived a Life
I lived a life
A life I don’t know
The person I was I can no longer go
I live and walk and breathe and talk
But to know who I was to be nothing more
I wish to forget of the thing that I was
For I was the squalor of what is
But now I don’t know of how to see
Of how to be the person I want to be
I just don’t know
The expectations of the world are higher than I can reach
Doesn’t matter if we have freedom of speech
The expectations of them all are all different from me
I can’t help it if they don’t like what they see
The expectations of the class are not where I lay
They laugh at what I do and mock what I say
The expectations of myself are horrifying
But what can I do when all I’m doing is lying
Strawberry lemonade, straw between my lips
You might think that I can’t help;
But you’ve got problems that I can fix.
We’ve been through a lot
However our relationship isn’t simply bought
But as you roll up the window
Feelings you try to conceal
One hand on my shoulder
Your other on the steering wheel
Take me to the city again.
Blinded by Shadows
I went through a drastic change back when
My family thought it was better then
But to no one’s surprise, my attempts to fight it were slain
I was forced to follow despite my tries
To express my hatred for the traveling flies
That lead me into this abyss of shadows and pain
Blinded by shadows, I brought myself to my feet
And built my own fortress to shield my fleet
Of thoughts and feelings that kept me from death’s disease
But when I finish my living here
And make my own choices, my own ship to steer
I’ll find my way home and die when I feel at ease
The Same Day
Time to live the same day
Everything is moving slow
Got people asking me if I’m okay
Don’t know how to tell them no
It feels like everybody else is fine
Why am I in-between the lines
Time to put on a fake smile
And make everything worth the while
Music helps me get through it
I just don’t think I can do it
Cancer is here and cancer is there,
Cancer takes life from those who can’t fight,
Family watch loved ones get lowered six feet down,
Coffin gets covered, by those who are loyal with soil,
And after the day when the sun is down,
Those that feel down,
Light a cigarette to continue the same endless cycle
As of it will make some higher power proud.
Have you ever seen an older get frozen in time,
Till they’re younger then you cause you’ve grown and they’ve died,
And all you have left is a hole in your mind, a ghost in his prime, frozen in time,
They don’t get any more moments to shine, just media eluding to involvement and crime,
Left their family, their friends and the whole ends behind.
Don’t look at me like that, you think we pick and choose, who gets to win and lose,
Think we don’t wanna sometimes walk in different shoes, see more for these gifted youths.
All now your mum doesn’t understand, switched it up just for a band,
Nothing on earth can make your dad believe, there’s a good reason u had to leave,
You left the madam too mad to grieve, now your little sisters generation has to back the beef,
No one knows why this had to be, but it’s real life and it’s sad to see.